Archive for October, 2010


When Satan Attacks…

posted by mrsnunar

I was under fire today. It was the first day of my Fall break and Satan knew I would be all alone, at home, and at my most vulnerable. First, he lured me back to bed after dropping off the kids at school. He slyly convinced me that I needed more rest and to relax after working so hard this week. I slept until 12:30pm and woke up groggy. After getting lunch and starting one load of laundry I started feeling better, but them I got a phone call from the photographer I had called earlier in the week to get our family photos taken. I felt like I had an out-of-body experience as I talked to her and she talked me into a $50 sitting fee and I gave her my credit card number. Then she told me the package prices starting at $350 and I heard myself saying OK, but it was surreal. In the back of my mind, I could hear a faint voice, “This is not something we need. What about Christmas gifts or paying off the truck?” But another voice was louder…”This would replace the OLD portrait you had taken over two years ago. You can use half of the next paycheck and put off paying the truck off for another month. Just figure out how to shuffle the budget later. These are precious memories you will want to capture now.” Before I knew what I was doing, I hung up the phone and immediately felt that I was taken advantage of- but not by the photographer, but a dominating force beyond my control. I texted my husband and he made me aware of my mistake and brought me back into reality. He suggested I call back the photographer and postpone our sitting until later when we could afford it, or at least save up for a nice package. He expressed the importance of reaching our goal of paying off the truck this month and reminded me of how excited we were to be able to do that. I cried tears of truth as the realization that I had been under attack all morning became clear.

My friends, Satan is so powerful and he wants Christians on his side more than anyone else. He covets us and knows us inside out. I was feeling at war today with him and he knew I was vulnerable like a small creature cowering in a corner. I was off my schedule, middle-of-the-week, alone and thinking only of myself and my “vacation”, and sitting in my messy house which always makes me feel weaker.

At 4pm it was time to go get my daughter from daycare and I cried out to God in the car on the way there. I prayed for His presence and for Satan to be released from sabotaging my day. I begged for words of encouragement from K-LOVE radio or from somewhere else. I heard “That’s What Faith Can Do” and was reminded that my faith can get me through hard times. I had forgotten temporarily today and taken it for granted. Then I heard the Afters “Light up the Sky” and these words touched me:

When I’m feeling all alone
With so far to go
The signs are no where on this road
Guiding me home
When the night is closing in
Is falling on my skin
Oh God will You come close?

Thank God for quick answers! I decided that tomorrow I will be putting on God’s armor in the morning by praying first thing and reading from my devotional which I’ve put off for a while. I decided to make sure I have music playing all day tomorrow to block out the shouting words of Satan in my ear and distract me from the ho-hum of daily life at home doing laundry and making dinner. I’m going to meditate and try to memorize the following verse also:

“Put on the full armor of God so that you can take your stand against the devil’s schemes.” Ephesians 6:11

While searching for the correct wording on this verse, I also found this interesting link. So pray for me if you pray. I will be needing it this weekend as Halloween approaches- one of my favorite holidays, but also Satan’s as well.